Finally finished up the video for the Flak Cannon I’ve been working on. You can check it out on the animation section of the website.

There will be some high quality stills added to the digital art gallery by the end of the week too, so stay tuned!

On a brighter note, the flak cannon is nearly complete. Hopefully by the beginning of next week I’ll be posting a small presentation video to show it off. So keep an eye out!

It’s just interesting then, to think and dwell on things that we have a hard time explaining. These thoughts, concepts, feelings, and ideas that we cannot put to words. What does that mean? Could it be reaching deeper into our own void of understanding to the point that there just aren’t words that can adequately describe them? You could perhaps argue that I just don’t have a very large vocabulary, haha which may be true, but I do think it’s reaching into the right hemisphere of the brain, and connecting with something that we cannot bridge quite yet. At onepoint during the podcast they discuss a state of wordlessness, a point where you don’t have words that clutter up your thoughts…. what would that be? I started thinking about this, and of course my head was filled with words and ideas, but what I came up with is that it has to be close to being in some state of meditation. Perhaps this is what someone can truely tap into, when a Hinduist masters meditation and describes it as finding their center and really feeling brahmin (everything), maybe what is really happening is that they have reached a point where they’re in a wordless state. A state of complete intake of whats around them, having feelings, sights, smells, and emotions without the names… They feel connected… Wierd yet interesting to think about.

This past weekend I went camping, and at onepoint during the night I found myself sitting on a dock, looking up at the stars. Ideas of this podcast floating around in my head, and for a moment I was filled with joy. I think I’ve tried to describe sort of feeling before. This sort of feeling of being full, and taken in by a particular moment. As I found myself looking up and just taking in the mess of stars above my head, I couldn’t help but feel myself falling in and being humbled by the grandness of… how things are.

While I still lack the words, I couldn’t help but feel like this podcast bridged an island of ideas for me… and in some way I understand me a little better.

I’m happy where I’m at for now… I think I’ve finally found my nook in life, and no longer live in regret of being far from friends and family. I try to visit people when I can, but also it’s become a bit tiring traveling so often… Last weekend was the first weekend I had spent in Montreal since I arrived back from Arizona, and while I didn’t do much socially… It was really good. I actually ended up working on a large section of the project I’m working on with Terry, and nearly put twenty hours into it in one weekend It had been so long since I had attempted something like that, that I sort of crashed a little bit on Monday haha. Things are looking good with it though, and I don’t know why I go through these burst of suddenly pouring a lot of time into Maya in a short period. Made me feel productive though, and I really can’t wait to show it off

I find myself in a bit of an odd area right now… I’m living a bit day by day, with no major plans as of late. It’s nice though, I think I need a bit of a lull.

Well that’ll be enough for now

If you haven’t yet, pick up this game… let me know so we can play online!

As for a general update about me? Well things have been super hectic since I got back from Arizona. Feels like I always have plans lately, and that’s getting to be a bit exhausting. This week I’m fighting a head cold because of it. Last weekend I had the opportunity to see a lot of Champlain friends in Cornish, New Hampshire, for Mike Ackerman’s Graduation Party. It was pretty much an amazing time, it had been so long since I had been to Cornish to visit Mike… in many ways Cornish sort of reminds me of where I grew up. Which, ironically enough, is where I’m headed this weekend to see Ryan before the Navy ships him off to somewhere. I’m not sure what to expect from this visit, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen people from High School, and I’m mainly going to just see Ryan. Hopefully we’ll get an opportunity to get some Kayaking in before the weekend is out.

Anyways that’s enough for now! Hopefully the following weekend will be nothing but Maya work

I recently had the opportunity to visit my parents in Arizona for roughly a week and a half. To be honest, after spending some time there, the best way I could describe how I felt was full. Somehow I didn’t know before that I was empty in some way, and in just being there with my parents and re-experiencing the awe of nature and the outdoors… filled me… with everything from feelings, to energy, to just feeling right in your core. It hurt having to leave, I felt my chest get tight, and while I knew I was meant to return… I couldn’t help but want to stay. As I flew back, I tried to look forward. To anticipate things to look forward to, and to continue my “life.” Yet this didn’t do much to shake my mood. It wasn’t until I was sitting on a bench, outside of Burlington airport, and when my friends drove up to pick me up. Their smiling and excited faces, un-knotted me, and I felt at home again.

People sometimes ask me and wonder why I seek to venture during most of my weekends. It always seems like I’ve got a plan to see this person here, or that family member there. I think part of it is that I’m looking for something… when I visit my family, I’m looking for some form of familiarity that I only truly get from my parents. Yet when I visit with friends I’ve known for several years, it’s a reconnection… it’s a re-energizer. Throughout college I had these sources of energy whenever I needed, and now it’s like I have to seek it out.

I believe that this sort of thing really just fuels you, it fuels your creativity, your mind, and your spirit. I returned to work this week and was asked to work ten hour days all week, and there seems to be no limit of chores around the apartment when I go home. At another moment this may have really dragged me down, I’d probably be tired and irritable… but I’m not. I still just feel so full to the points where I can’t be shaken. I’m figuring out what important in my life, and how to drive all the other stuff.

This may have been a really confusing blog post, but as always… I’m just trying to sort things out

If you take anything from this post, let it be this… know what charges you… what drives you forward in whatever direction that is. Learn to be able to take in the moment, and stand in awe of things still unknown… and seek out those you cherish. If you can allow yourself to lead, you won’t let you down.

So definitely enjoying my Arizona vacation, it’s given me time to relax, visit the parents, and go on random adventures wherever possible. So far I’ve managed to go exploring random lava tube caves with Mom, four wheeling, fishing, and a bit of hiking.

So all is pretty well! Although I don’t have much time to write much, I also wanted to share an updated video for the turret that was compressed and put together a bit better than the last… SO here it is!

I’ll write more when I can

Be sure to check it out!

This Thursday I’ll be on a flight to Arizona to see my parents, and as odd as this sounds… I do sort of feel like I’ll be going home. That’s not to say that I’ve spent so much time in Arizona that it now feels like home, but it’s definitely familiar to me now… and I guess has taken up residence in my heart. I guess this goes to show that location doesn’t always matter, it’s the people who do.

In any case I couldn’t be more excited to head west once more

I spent this last weekend in Montreal, the past three I think have been in the states, so it had been a while since I had spent some actual quality time up here. The last few weekends I had spent up here, while happy, I had mademyself a bit secluded and ended up spending a bulk of my time in Maya working on my latest side project. I guess I was still a bit secluded, and there was some Maya involved, but all and all it was a pretty great weekend. Saturday I woke up and decided to continue work at unwrapping the latest section of the turret, and to be honest I took some breaks to enjoy some Red Dead Redemption, but I ended up getting most of it unwrapped. Beyond taking a stroll around lunch time, I sort of enjoyed a mostly relaxing day in. The weather was cloudy, and they talked of rain, so I had decided early on that I wouldn’t go kayaking. Although at the end of the day, the clouds had burned off and I saw blue skies out my window. SO I rushed to throw my boat on my car, find some random directions to a place called “Boucherville,” and figured I’d try to salvage what was left of the day.

I was really looking for a park named “Iles-de-Boucherville,” but managed to get myself pretty lost saturday night, and in a desperate attempt I found a random park type area to put in. It wasn’t really too bad, beyond the long portage, it was really kind of nice. I didn’t stay out for very long though, as it was getting dark and I didn’t want to try to find my way back at night… So I returned, somewhat triumphantly. Upon returning my kayak though, I was met by my upstairs neighbors, who were going out and wanted me to join! So I quickly took care of my boat, changed, and headed out with them to some events that were happening around Montreal. First we checked out some fireworks that were happening over La Ronde, and then we ended up at the Francofollie festival downtown… although the music was all in french, it was a lot of fun.

Sunday, I woke up a bit early and finished unwrapping what I hadn’t done in Maya pretty quickly. The day was starting to look like a nice one, so I found some better directions to Iles-de-Boucherville, loaded up my kayak, made a quick stop at subway, and ventured off once again. I was much more successful this second outing, as I did actually find the park and a proper place to launch. I found the water was a bit murky though, and the sides of the river were a bit strange and clay like… but very nice nonetheless. I managed to find some smaller inlets away from the larger motor boats. Deep, in what would be best described as a marshy glade, I found many beaver, Herron, and surprisingly cat fish. I was on the river for most of the day sunday, and returned home to some Miller Chills and a movie

This past weekend just felt so nice, almost like I’m suddenly assembling my life… I couldn’t be more excited to actually be able to kayak from where I’m living It’s been a long time since I had my boat with me, and through these small ventures… I can get just a bit of the escape that I sometimes need.

Work is on it’s way up, although for sure still a bit annoying lately, but I’m getting through. I can tell more interesting things are on the horizon, and I’m eager to see what changes come my way. I’m also pretty excited about this “side project,” I’ve been working on with a friend from work. It’s been really great to casually work on something with someone else, there’s not only your own personal drive to do well, but now it’s not just work you want to do better for yourself but also for the other person. Be sure to check out his website, he’s a pretty talented artist.

Anyways I’ll leave you with that… Until next time

10 days till AZ!